I know you guys really wanted me to follow through but i can't bring myself to do it.

i'll be honest and admit i was holding myself to a pretty high bar when making it.

i know now that you guys probably wouldn't have cared but in january i had pretty high expectations for myself and the pressure i felt from you guys wasn't really helping me feel motivated to work.

it was tearing me down internally and it's not you guys' fault. it's my fault i held myself to meet expectations better than what you suggested i put in.

if one of you guys wants to take the game and finish it you can have it, this game went from the greatest idea i ever had to just a stain in the back of my mind.

i felt like I'm permanently in this cycle of hopelessness. i'll never go anywhere, i'll never amount to anything, i'll never be anyone. someday it'll catch up to me though and i'll be free.

there used to be this part of my brain i could rely on to just sit back and work but as i kept going i lost part of my brain but i felt pressured to keep going anyway and i wore myself out working.

i couldn't talk myself out of it, you can't both ask questions and give answers. that's not how that works but i didn't want to reach out to someone about it and that's probably what did me in

this game makes me sick